Weight Watchers Update

The biggest reason I hesitated doing Weight Watchers again was worrying about numbers. What would be my weight? What would the scale say each week? The last time I did Weight Watchers I had a scale in my bathroom and caught myself weighing myself sometimes three times a day – I would be so excited when I saw a loss, and so frustrated when I saw a gain. I got so into the number on that scale, I missed the bigger picture. Yes, I want to lose weight – I want a smaller number on that scale. But I want to live a long and comfortable life. I want to have energy, I want to feel comfortable in my skin, I want to remove stress from my heart and other organs. I want to avoid the health issues that my relatives have and had.

However I knew I had to lose weight, and I knew Weight Watchers was a lifestyle choice, not an actual diet. I knew I could start it and continue it for life without feeling as though I couldn’t socialize, enjoy what I like, go on vacation, eat birthday cake (or drink a birthday cocktail!). I also knew that though I hate scales, I knew I had exceeded THE NUMBER.

I think we all have THE NUMBER – a weight you promise you will never and can never exceed. For me, that number was 200. I had exceeded 200 once before in my life, and I practically starved myself to return to the land of the 1-somethings. Even if I was 199, well I wasn’t THAT NUMBER. And then I got pregnant. I exceeded 200 pounds around 32 weeks and when I saw that number I almost threw up. It took a lot of reassuring by my midwives, my husband, my self to justify that number – I was creating a PERSON in my body, I will probably lose at least 15 pounds within my first week postpartum, yadda yadda. But it still hurt, a lot.

In the next eight or so weeks, I gained even more weight. The midwives told me I may lose all of that before I ended maternity leave, especially if I was nursing my child. I kept telling myself that, and kept saying the phrase, “Nine months in, nine months out.” I believed that by Emerson’s 9-month birthday I could be back to my pre-pregnancy weight and size.

Nine months came and went, and I was still over THAT NUMBER. A year went by, I was still above THAT NUMBER. I doubled that time – Emerson was18 months old and I was nowhere near my pre-pregnancy weight or size. And that’s when I started Weight Watchers.

I have not been removing weight quickly on Weight Watchers, but I have not been 100% with the plan. I don’t exercise as much as I should, some days I don’t track, and some days I don’t even think about Weight Watchers. However I am slowly but surely losing, or at least plateauing.

Last night I went to Weight Watchers for the first time since December 9th. I removed 1.6 pounds. This is a nice amount to remove, but it also bought me comfortably below 189, another number that means a lot to me.  Enough that a little slip from decadent New Years Eve party food won't put me back up into the '90s.

I hovered between 160 and 190 for about a decade. I have finally gotten back into that zone that I am familiar with. I was 184 before I got pregnant. I was a size 12, but occasionally fit into a 10. I wasn’t thin, I was still considered obese by doctors, but I really felt at ease in this body. I believe I will be at 184 before my 36th birthday.

Last night at my Weight Watchers meeting, we discussed weight loss contracts for the New Year. What we plan on committing to in order to reach our goals. I want to be a size 10 before June, before going back to Bonnaroo, before bathing suit season. This means I need to amp up Weight Watchers. I need to move my body on a daily basis, even if it’s 30 minutes of dancing and moving in front of the TV while Emerson is playing. I need to track more regularly and really become knowledgeable with PointsPlus so I can more easily gauge good choices when out at restaurants and social events. I need to be committed.

2011 is tomorrow – a new year, a new chance to be kinder to my body, show it the love it deserves. Healthy foods, plenty of water, more sleep, more exercise. It’s never too late to care for yourself, to get back on track. What contract will you make with yourself for 2011?

39 Comments

  1. January 4, 2011 / 7:25 pm

    Thanks De. And it’s so true, if I were 170 I would easily fit into size 10 pants. Crazy how you can’t judge by a number on the scale!

  2. January 4, 2011 / 7:22 pm

    Thanks for being real with your numbers. I’m 5’4 and my “number” was always 180. I hit that for a few months before getting pregnant. Then my goal was not to get above 200 during my pregnancy (not that I was strict about this, after all I was growing a person, but I had plenty of “maternal stores” so didn’t need to put that on). I delivered at 202, and had literally shed all the pregnancy weight in 3 weeks. I’ve dropped another 10lbs from that from nursing over the past year (DS turns 1 on Sat!), but it’s not the same body. I’ve gotten complacent in my eating knowing my son is helping to regulate my weight, but I worry what’ll happen when I wean him (no immediate plans, but his mamma milk consumption is starting to dial back).

    And once again proving that no two women are the same, at 170 I hover between a 14/16. It sounds like your 170 is about a 10/12. Good luck keeping on track! I’m sure you’ll find a way to make it work for you.

  3. January 4, 2011 / 11:57 am

    I think we can lick it if we see it as any other task in our life – raising a child, maintaining a household, working towards a promotion at work, getting a degree. Food is so tough because unlike a drug or a cute dress, we actually need it to survive. But we CAN do it! 🙂

  4. January 4, 2011 / 11:19 am

    You are speaking only to me! I know it!

    I could have written this except I’m your momma’s age.

    WEIGHT! Grrr and arg. Will I ever lick it?

    Thanks Allie – this is great.

  5. kathy
    January 3, 2011 / 5:31 pm

    I did WW online a few years ago and lost about 12 pounds. Then I quit and gained it all back, plus some. Joined again in the late summer but didn’t track, so all that money down the drain. I’m giving myself three months to track and stick to it; otherwise I’ll cancel because I’m not serious enough. My number is 150. I refuse to see that number again, regardless of doing WW or not.

    Thanks for your honesty and inspiration.

  6. January 3, 2011 / 4:28 pm

    You know I don’t either – being held accountable makes such a difference!

  7. January 3, 2011 / 4:27 pm

    Is this Bethy? 🙂 If so, hit me up and I can help you with eTools!

  8. Beth
    January 3, 2011 / 4:25 pm

    This is exactly why I joined. I don’t have enough self motivation. I am doing it with a friend so we are helping each other stay on track.

  9. Beth
    January 3, 2011 / 4:24 pm

    I joined yesterday. Having trouble figuring it out but am glad for the support.

  10. January 3, 2011 / 10:22 am

    This is my 4th time with WW, I feel you sister! 🙂

  11. January 3, 2011 / 10:22 am

    We were discussing in our WW meeting how Jennifer Hudson says she was a size 16 before WW. We’re like no honey, you were more like a size 20. Not even weight loss heroes are completely honest with their weight/size before OR after. Hard to know what to believe any more.

  12. January 3, 2011 / 4:59 am

    Thank you for sharing all of this. Lately I feel surrounded by a lot of conflicting (and, often, I suspect, unrealistic) narratives on weight, and I so appreciate when people are brave enough to have an honest dialogue on their own experiences.

  13. MadameQueen
    January 3, 2011 / 2:13 am

    I just re-joined WW. Two years ago I lost 17 pounds and got down to my goal weight 140, though I mostly stayed around 142. I looked and felt awesome. BUT, I didn’t live the life and I have somehow managed to put on 27!! pounds. So, it’s back to WW I go. Hi ho, hi ho. Or something like that. 🙁

  14. January 2, 2011 / 10:35 pm

    Thanks Christy!

  15. January 2, 2011 / 10:35 pm

    Thanks mamacita!

  16. January 2, 2011 / 10:35 pm

    Thanks Lisa! The body has been changing so much the past two years – far more than the numbers on the scale. It has been quite a journey – I feel like a teenager all over again!

  17. Lisa :o)
    January 2, 2011 / 10:22 pm

    Allie~ I just want to Thank you for sharing this post. It was very inspiring to me. I, too have struggled with weight issues all of my life and I am also one of those ladies that will probably never be at the weight that the charts try to tell us we should be. It sure is encouraging to read your story. I had noticed in the last 6 months or so that you have lost a good amount of weight – weather or not it is showing up on your scales. Keep up the good work!
    Lisa :o)

  18. Blueshi
    January 2, 2011 / 8:25 pm

    Allie, I love your honesty in this post. One of the reasons that I have been such a longtime reader is that you deal with real women issues: figure flaws, cluttered closets, trying to get ready in the morning with kids around, et cetera. I too have gone over The Number….WAAAY over. I am almost 240 now, after the holidays I probably AM 240. Thanks for sharing with us.

  19. Christy
    January 2, 2011 / 3:27 am

    I have been reading your blog for a long time and I really love your honesty! Thank you for posting this and putting out there the hardship a lot of us go through. I have a kid the same age as Emerson (and then another one 14 months later!!) and I have been struggling with the 9 months off part. You inspire me and I think you are doing great 🙂

  20. January 1, 2011 / 7:23 pm

    Best of luck to you and your boyfriend Jil! It really helps to have a teammate in the weight loss fight! 🙂

  21. January 1, 2011 / 7:22 pm

    I agree about the BMI. And the sloooow weight loss is the sticky weight loss!

  22. January 1, 2011 / 7:22 pm

    Thanks Cat, Happy New Year to you too!

  23. January 1, 2011 / 7:22 pm

    Happy New Year to you too!

    I am 5’3″

  24. January 1, 2011 / 7:21 pm

    Thanks Naomi! And creativity with fashion is just like being creative with cooking, home decor, crafts, gardening. Seeing the whole picture, trial and failure, and growth with time and experience!

  25. January 1, 2011 / 7:20 pm

    Thanks! And I will check out Carb Cycling. With the PointsPlus I have already seen a change in my appetite which is fantastic! 🙂

  26. Cactusrose63
    January 1, 2011 / 8:08 am

    Hi Allie,

    I also did Weight Watchers years ago and did well in the long run. Lost 30 pounds over 2 years and kept it off for the past 12 years and am happy about that. What really helped me get over the last obstacle of the last 20 pounds was low carbing/ Carb Cycling. Your appetite really diminishes so you feel more in control, and you can incorporate extra calories/carbs into your daily and weekly plan–intermittently that is–and still lose weight. Check it out. Best to you in your weight loss goals…

  27. Naomi
    January 1, 2011 / 7:53 am

    Hi Allie, Long time reader, 1st time for comments. I just wanted to let you know what an inspiration you are to me, and obviously many others, with both weight loss and your ability to look gorgeous despite a busy lifestyle. I am a working mum of 3 boys, I also struggle with my weight, my main issue being that I eat too much, not too unhealthy though as I love to cook and am committed to balanced home cooked meals for my family. I am never manage to be as gorgeous and creative with my outfits though, I do wish that you lived “down under” so that I could relate more to your seasons and wardrobe suppliers. Nevertheless, your fashion ideas are inspiring and I’m very happy that you are in my blogosphere. Best wishes to you and your beautiful family for 2011. Naomi

  28. Kay8
    January 1, 2011 / 2:04 am

    Great post! I’m also a petite and I follow along with you in terms on fashion and sizes for us shorties. May I ask: how tall are you?

    Happy New Year! May 2011 be the best yet!

  29. Cat
    January 1, 2011 / 12:20 am

    What a motivating post! Happy New Year!!!

    Cat

  30. December 31, 2010 / 9:48 pm

    I can very much relate to what you are saying. I think it sounds you’ve done a great job and you know what? Slow and steady wins the race. From your updates, it sounds like you’ve made changes in your lifestyle that are sticking.
    I’d removed and re-gained the same 30 pounds for 10 years. My weight has been in a stable comfortable place (for me – because that’s what counts) for 3 years now. The last time I removed weight I did it sloooowly. Sometimes only a pound or 2 per month. As for what the medical community thinks, sometimes I believe the rely too much on the BMI.

  31. Jil
    December 31, 2010 / 9:46 pm

    Both my boyfriend and I got the scale last night, he was upset I simply broke out in tears. I am now officially 10 pounds heavier than I have ever been in my life. We talked about doing Jenny Craig together, we talked about doing Weight Watchers together, but we think we’ve settled on eating at home more often, making our own healthy meals together and finding an exercise routine that we can hold each other to.

  32. December 31, 2010 / 7:23 pm

    I can relate to what you are saying about being at a weight that appears thin, but still being considered obese by the doctors. It makes it very hard to keep up the motivation to slim down, and maintain it. I had the same ever go to that weight about 200lbs as well. I am over that right now, and I think banning myself from that weight actually made me gain more, because it became stressful to watch the scale.

    I don’t understand the medical community’s preoccupation with labeling people as obese. There are many people who do not weight what the charts say they should weight, but have excellent blood pressure, cholesterol, are active and yet get ripped down by the medical community. It is a sad state of affairs. I am very happy for you that you are able to move past that kind of stuff and feel good about yourself again. 🙂

  33. December 31, 2010 / 7:22 pm

    Thanks Stephanie! 🙂

  34. Stephanie
    December 31, 2010 / 7:21 pm

    I love this post!

  35. December 31, 2010 / 6:59 pm

    A huge motivation has been making this public. Over the five plus years of blogging I have fluctuated like crazy, dieted, fell off the wagon, tried something else. Deciding to make this out in the open means I am being held accountable not just by myself, but by a bunch of strangers (and virtual friends!).

    Sarah, I really believe that with weightloss slow and steady does win the race. The body can adjust and adapt and sees it as a life change, not a diet. I would rather take two years to get this off and have it off for a lifetime, than have it off in a few months and have it return a year later. 🙂

  36. December 31, 2010 / 6:28 pm

    The tortoise wins the race! Slow weight loss means that you can take the time learn the lifestyle choices that reduce weight. That’s what I’m telling myself at least! 🙂

  37. December 31, 2010 / 5:41 pm

    I can relate to what you are saying about being at a weight that appears thin, but still being considered obese by the doctors. It makes it very hard to keep up the motivation to slim down, and maintain it. I had the same ever go to that weight about 200lbs as well. I am over that right now, and I think banning myself from that weight actually made me gain more, because it became stressful to watch the scale.

    I don’t understand the medical community’s preoccupation with labeling people as obese. There are many people who do not weight what the charts say they should weight, but have excellent blood pressure, cholesterol, are active and yet get ripped down by the medical community. It is a sad state of affairs. I am very happy for you that you are able to move past that kind of stuff and feel good about yourself again. 🙂

  38. December 31, 2010 / 5:26 pm

    Awesome job Allie. You have such a great attitude about it! You definitely have it in you to be successful. I hope 2011 brings you much health and happiness. I am happy to have found your blog this year. Cheers!

  39. December 31, 2010 / 4:33 pm

    I can so relate to everything you said. It’s nice to hear those things from someone else and know you aren’t alone in your struggle to accomplish those goals.

    Thanks for your honesty, which is encouragement for all of us.

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