Weight Watchers Update

Sorry I have been MIA, I feel as though I have been in a bit of a funk lately. I am still doing Weight Watchers, but I have not been good to myself. I have been lazy with tracking what I eat, haven’t been exercising.

This past week I missed my meeting and weigh-in because it was my husband’s birthday. Unfortunately we didn’t do anything exciting and glamorous – we found out that the house is leaking where the new part connects to the old part. My husband spent his birthday dealing with a toddler who loves the word NO and hates naps, while having the Co-op folks and our contractor track mud all over the house while looking at bubbling paint and a very full drain pan below our A/C unit (guess should be happy the leak went into that pan and not say the wood flooring). By time I got home, he only wanted to finish his beer and go to bed and enjoy silence.

The week before, I went. And I removed. I had gained 1.8 over the previous two weeks and at this meeting I learned I removed 1.6. So almost back down to where I was. I think I have removed more since then but don’t know because I didn’t go to my meeting.

I know I could have removed more if I was more… motivated. I just feel so darn DONE. Work has been so hectic, the commute sucks all the more when the weather is icky (it has been raining a LOT the past two weeks), Emerson is at an age where she needs to be entertained and wants to play and is curious. As soon as I get home it’s like I take off my shoes, wash my hands, nurse E and immediately we’re playing or going to a playground and then feeding and giving a bath and fighting bedtime and books and singing and dancing and… it’s all incredibly fun but not when I am working in very little sleep and brain fry from work. Then add how my husband has had a few photo shoots lately so it’s early mornings, late nights, lots of “ships passing in the night” sort of life, and juggling everything.

I want to exercise. I want to have something like a class that is just for me. Once a week, where I meet with other women and we work out together and motivate one another. But I just don’t know where to fit it in to my life. The only night where my husband and I are in the house at the same time before 8:00pm is Wednesday nights and I don’t want to lose that precious evening with the family. If it was on a weekend, I would need to find some babysitting because of my husband’s classes and shoots on those days. I started some videos in the morning, but when I have to get up at 4:30am just to get to work on time the days we have big events, well the idea of waking up any earlier than that makes me want to vomit. I feel as though I am chock full of excuses, but I really have not figured out how to fit regular exercise into my life.

This weekend was full of things that were not WW-friendly. Friday I was completely brain fried from a really crazy week, and we didn’t properly celebrate my husband’s birthday so we went out to dinner. I was good with my choices – water and grilled flounder with edamame and brown rice. However it just didn’t taste good – it’s so much better to dine at home when you are trying to eat well because you have the ability to add flavor without butter and salt. Restaurants don’t really know how to do that all the time. So when neighbors brought over carrot cake cupcakes that evening I ended up consuming one and a half of them in about 30 seconds flat.

The next morning was hectic and breakfast ended up being another cupcake and lukewarm coffee. We then went to my husband’s cousin’s house for her son’s birthday where I ate a hot dog and three jalapeno poppers and a bite of another cupcake. That night my husband and I were both craving Thanksgiving so I roasted my first whole chicken in almost a decade and served it with gravy made from pan drippings, mashed potatoes and green beans. It was fantastic. I didn’t eat the skin, I didn’t go bonkers with the gravy, but I did indulge and it was quite an experience.

Sunday’s breakfast was as bad as Saturday’s – a brownie and coffee. I was going to a baby shower and offered to bake brownies. I consumed all the brownie stuff left in the pan after removing them for transit. Then once I was at the shower I threw points out the window. I had several glasses of champagne punch, Caesar salad, artichoke and goat cheese strata, two biscuits with ham and mustard and half of a blueberry muffin. I got home and in my buzzed state ate half of the leftover mashed potatoes with about a quarter of a cup of gravy and passed out in front of the TV.

Today I have been more on track – breakfast was a bagel thin with Eggbeaters and a slice of real cheddar paired with coffee with 1 point of cream. Lunch was a Weight Watchers meal of 6 points, and snacks have been a banana and another cup of coffee. So nothing horrible, but I still feel like a slacker. Maybe it’s the rain, maybe it’s a desperate need for a vacation, maybe it’s the long hours stuck in an office with the window to my back and two monitors facing me, zapping my soul. Whatever it is, I hope to get out of this funk soon. My body deserves better!

13 Comments

  1. kathy
    October 6, 2010 / 1:32 pm

    Don’t listen to Sharelle. Sharelle, if you don’t like it, don’t read.

    Allie, you’ve made such a difference in MY life, and I value you and everything you write about. Keep putting yourself out there. You have more people who love you than not!

  2. CynthiaW
    October 6, 2010 / 3:10 am

    I find it interesting that someone would take the time to read your blog (probably both of them), figure out how old your child is, comment on your lifestyle in a negative way – and quite viciously, but do it all anonymously.

    It kind of makes me feel sorry for him or her – how awful must your life be that attacking perfect strangers on the internet is your form of entertainment?

    I’m glad that you don’t let it get to you though and that you keep putting yourself out there.

  3. October 6, 2010 / 12:28 am

    Hey Sharelle, I have been blogging for 5 years and I know people aren’t going to agree with me. I don’t expect everyone to – that’s one thing great about the blogosphere, everyone can say what they like and they will find some kindred spirits.

    I never understand the people who take the time to say nasty things in comments though. Seems like a waste of time to me.

    I don’t think I am complaining, but whatevs. You don’t know me, I don’t know you and you are entitled to your opinion.

    And as for the breastfeeding thing, I don’t know you but to think such a thing is “really disgusting” means that you are highly uneducated about proper nutrition for babies and young toddlers. But then again, we’re entitled to our own opinions!

    XOXO

  4. Anonymous
    October 6, 2010 / 12:23 am

    Sorry – you put you whole life out there into the big wide world – so of course people are not going to agree with you.

    I too think it is really disgusting that you are STILL breastfeeding.

    And don’t make excuses. Put your kid in a stoller and go for a walk. Work out at lunch time. Or downsize your lifestyle, so you DON’T have to work so much.

    You shoved the food down your throat, so you are fat. Either do something about it. Or stop complaining.

    Sharelle

  5. kathy
    October 5, 2010 / 2:10 pm

    I feel like I could have written this post! I’m doing the same with WW; I find it nearly impossible to keep on track on the weekends when there are family dinners, parties, etc. No one else is cooking for my needs, and trying to figure out points for something like homemade lasagna is maddening. Just do your very best to stay on track during the week and that will help. Also? I first lost weight without exercising too. I read once that it’s 90% what goes in your mouth and only 10% how much exercise you get. So stop beating yourself up over not having time to exercise, and focus on the food aspect.

    Speaking of exercise, I’ve been a working mother for 14 years now and only this past March have I had time to actually do a regular exercise routine, and my kids are 14 and 11! It’s hard when you’re working full-time, not seeing your husband that much, and dealing with a toddler. There really is no time in the day.

    I agree with the commenter who said to get enough sleep. That’s more important right now than how much exercise you get. Studies have shown that getting enough sleep can help you maintain and even lose weight.

    So my suggestion to you: 1. keep eating right, 2. get enough sleep, and 3. don’t sweat the exercise thing. Oh, and keep inspiring me with your fabulous sense of style!

  6. Anonymous
    October 5, 2010 / 4:14 am

    First, Anonymous #2 is way out of line!

    Secondly, you are doing an awesome job Allie. You are doing the best you can with limited time and resources. DH and I work opposite schedules so that I can be home with the kids, and it can take quite a toll. My husband and I have little time to connect, we’re juggling schedules, and I always feel guilty when I forgo family time to do something for myself.

    I’m also finding having a two year old rewarding and challenging at the same time. Love that he’s finding his independence and developing a personality, but hate the battles!

    I’m pretty much rambling, but I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. I also second the idea of finding a gym with childcare. I’m planning on joining our Y so that I can get an hour to myself and DS can interact with some other kids. You could even workout for an hour and then grab Emerson and hit the pool. That way you’re staying active and getting some more family time in. Win, win 🙂

  7. Anonymous
    October 5, 2010 / 2:26 am

    Allie, the gym i go to for yoga has childcare. It is a facility run by the city i live in, and the caregivers are wonderful! Do you have that option?

  8. CynthiaW
    October 5, 2010 / 12:50 am

    Hey, Allie – don’t give up or get down on yourself, some weeks are just like that. I’ve lost 55 pounds in just over a year on WW, but I’ve had weeks like yours – some of them I gained a little and sometimes I’ve just stagnated for a few weeks. Sometimes I’ve even found that, with the level of exercise that I’m doing, I need to eat more in order to not slow down my metabolism.

    It’s a learning process and I lost the first 30 without doing any extra exercise beyond walking the dog every night. Don’t neglect the power of getting enough sleep either – getting up early to exercise won’t help if you don’t sleep enough. The weeks that I’ve slept and hydrated the most (okay, and tracked my food the best) are the weeks that I’ve done the best.

    Plus, I think that you’re doing a fabulous job – you look great and you are an inspiration, even when you aren’t losing weight.

  9. Anonymous
    October 5, 2010 / 12:25 am

    To poster #2 – why Allie
    is breastfeeding an “almost 2 year old” is none of your business. We are one of the only countries in the world that frown upon breastfeeding past the age of 1. I breastfed my daughter until 2.5 yrs old and don’t regret a single moment. Allie – you are a busy working mother and truly do need to cut yourself a break. You are doing ALOT and still trying ot maintain a positive, reflective attitude. Good for you!

  10. Anonymous
    October 4, 2010 / 11:41 pm

    I second the first poster, I hope you can find a way to get in some taking care of yourself, I love the suggestion for a walk or yoga.

    You may have mentioned this but what about your lunch breaks? can you squeeze in anything during those?

    I’m honestly amazed at how much weight you have lost/ how great you look, without a lot of working out! That is very impressive!

  11. October 4, 2010 / 11:05 pm

    Wow second anonymous poster, I really hope you’re making a joke. I am going to assume that, okay?

    And first anonymous poster, you are so right. You’re telling me what I tell other people, but don’t do myself. I don’t listen to myself, but this week I am going to try very hard to listen to you. Thank you. 🙂

  12. Anonymous
    October 4, 2010 / 9:59 pm

    Why are you breastfeeding an almost 2 year old????

  13. Anonymous
    October 4, 2010 / 8:30 pm

    You need to cut yourself a break! Sometimes there just isn’t enough time for everything. We can’t all be perfect all the time. (Some of us can’t be perfect even occasionally!) It sounds to me like what you need most is some quiet down time, so do carve out some time to meditate, walk, do yoga, sleep, whatever would nurture your very tired inner person. Rest and inner peace is very important and nothing else will go well without it. Best of luck – it’s not easy!

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