So an update on Weight Watchers, after finishing my first week.
I sort of wish I had never done WW before because I catch myself saying, “yeah yeah” when the leader speaks or I read something in my booklet. I know points, I know portion control, I know all this. But obviously I don't because I am overweight. My friend says that overweight women know more about health and nutrition than any skinny woman and I agree. It is so degrading when thin friends tell overweight friends to drink more water, add just 10 minutes of exercise a day, park at the end of the parking lot to get walking in, to eat dinner on a salad plate, blah blah. Most women who have extra pounds on them and have for a while know all this. They know how many calories they should consume, what percentage of a meal should be protein, complex carbs, how much water to consume. The majority of women who are overweight aren't so because of lack of information or knowledge.
So I read the Weight Watchers info and I get bored because it is nothing new to me. I have done Atkins, South Beach, Weight Watchers. I have been a gym rat, a yogaholic, a person who wore a pedometer every day to get her minimum of 10,000 steps. I have done Diet Fuel, Xenadrine, and a couple other pills that were popular in the '90s. Low carb, high fiber, high protein, all veggies, grapefruit juice, and plenty of other randomness over the decades. I read the books and the Web sites, I subscribed to all the fitness magazines.
But nothing has stuck. I did lose like 25 pounds before my wedding thanks to South Beach, but it came back. When we lived together after college, my sister and I did a variation of the Atkins diet where we drank grapefruit juice each morning and were able to splurge every other weekend and I lost like 15 pounds with that. In college I went through a period where I walked five miles a day with ankle and hand weights, took step aerobics twice a week and hit the gym three times a week and got down to a size 6. And each time, I lost interest, lost motivation, found it too extreme to fit into daily life and quit. And gained it back… and then some.
I was able to maintain a size 12 until I left retail. Switching to a desk job was better for my personal life (and my body – varicose veins were right around the corner), but it wasn't better for my figure. I gained 25 pounds in one year by changing nothing except my job. I didn't realize how active I was working retail and how much my metabolism would slow with sitting all day. I did Curves with a coworker for a while, morning gym jaunts with another, but always ended up having reasons to miss a day.
Anyway, I am trying really hard to see Weight Watchers with fresh eyes. So what if I know this stuff, I am obviously not applying it to my life on a regular basis. I put the booklets in the bathroom so I can re-read and get it imprinted on my mind. I have subscribed to a few WW-related blogs on my Google Reader. I am trying once a week to make ahead snacks and various foods so I can't feel as though I don't have time for a proper meal and end up snacking on something bad. I am seeing this not as losing weight, but changing my lifestyle. I changed my lifestyle when I got married, changed it again when I had a baby, this is just as important of a thing in my life. I can't enjoy parenthood or wifehood or any hood with excess weight straining my knees, my heart, my whole self.
So anyway, first week I lost 2.6 pounds. Not too shabby. I did track every single day, but I did go over points two different days. Again, I love love LOVE the eTools with Weight Watchers – I keep it open all day and can easily drop in things like the International Delights creamer I put in my iced coffee, the oatmeal I had for breakfast in the car while my husband drove me to the Metro. It's so easy to “forget” the creamer, the snack sized candy bar from the receptionist, the two olives you munched while cooking dinner, the mayo you had on your sandwich if you don't track until the end of the day. Seeing “WeightWatchers.com: Plan Manager” in my tabs at the top of my browser is a constant reminder of this life change.
This past week I couldn't stay for the whole meeting. My husband had to sub for another yoga instructor so I had to take Emerson to the meeting with me. Emerson is a really chill kid but she is also a toddler and wasn't going to be quiet during the meeting. She wanted to run and talk to people and explore. I stayed to be weighed in, to chat with my mom (she joined too and it was her first week), and then went outside to let Emerson play at a playground until the meeting was over so I could meet up with my mom.
I have told my husband he can't sub for a teacher on Thursdays unless he can score a sitter for Emerson during the meeting. I no longer take yoga or ki gong because I can't fit it into our crazy schedule. But I can't blow this off any longer. The meeting is a whole hour and it's a 10-minute walk from my house. No more excuses, and it's not fair to not be able to have that hour to just myself. He agreed; for that short of a time a neighbor can easily watch Emerson even in our own home.
This past weekend was a tough one. On Saturday I went to a party that had an amazing spread. I DID have a cheeseburger, but I did go sans mayo. With the rest of the food, I had 3 shrimp with a touch of cocktail sauce, 5 potato chips with some onion dip, 2 light beers, 2 jello shots, a cup of some sort of vodka punch, and then just plain fruit or veggies and a lot of water. The next day I was pretty good – mixed greens salad and put my fork in dressing instead of putting right on the salad. I had more veggies and fruit and two crackers with hummus. I drank sparkling water and did a lot of running around behind Emerson. Then the next cookout, I had a cheeseburger and salad and two non-light beers. But instead of feeling like crap, I just pushed forward. Yesterday I ate on track, and today I am completely back to my routine.
I look forward to meeting this week. I may not have lost, but I know I didn't gain like I would if I wasn't on Weight Watchers. And I plan to take in this week's meeting as though I am a newbie to the weight loss world, soak up the tidbits and messages.