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I have come to embrace color and have way less black in my closet now, but a lot of these looks are timeless and I would wear now… just likely with lower heels! 😂

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Lifestyle · September 23, 2018

27 Years Later

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Trigger Warning: Details and discussion about sexual assault 

Junior year of high school, a friend set me up with a boy from a different school. He was a senior, a football player, and quite popular. We spent hours on the phone, did a few group dates to the movies, were at a few of the same parties but never had a solo date. He called me up one Saturday and asked if I was free that evening. He came over to my house with a pizza and a movie. My parents upstairs letting us have some privacy for our date, he popped in the tape. The movie was Caligula.

I was extremely uncomfortable but didn’t want to look uncool and ask him to turn it off. We started kissing, and soon he was on top of me. He tried to put his hands down my pants but my high waisted guess jeans made it difficult. I asked him to stop. He unzipped my jeans and began to pull them down. I said it more forcefully, but I still said please because I was a good girl and that's what good girls did. Please STOP. Please NO. He took the palm of his large hand and pressed it down between my breasts, showing his strength as he pinned me to the couch. He looked me in the eye and smiled. “What are you going to do, scream?” He didn’t know me well enough to know that I had a close and trusting relationship with my parents.  I told him I would scream and my dad would come down and take care of him. “I’m not scared to scream,” I said, hyperventilating but trying to sound confident. What if my parents didn’t hear me? What if he covered my mouth? But he didn’t.

He got up, grabbed his movie, called me a frigid bitch and left.

He told his friends he slept with me. Friends who didn’t go to my school, who didn’t know me. Friends who believed him and when I went to a party they were at snickered and pointed and coughed while saying “slut” when I walked by. Friends who were just a couple months from graduating and I’d never have to see again.

I was so very lucky. It could have gone a different way so very easily.  So often it does.

I haven’t forgotten that football player from the other school. We have mutual friends on Facebook. He has a wife and kids, went to good schools, and now has an impressive job. Scroll through his account, and he looks like an upstanding individual. He is a coach for his kid’s team, goes to church, hosts barbecues in his backyard. But I see in his photos that same person who smashed his hand down on my chest with all his might and looked at me with such a devilish grin it looked ripped off a Disney villain. He may have only been 17 but he knew exactly what he was doing.

I never told my friend who set us up what happened. I didn’t tell my parents. I didn’t tell my friends. Nothing happened, right? He didn't actually do anything to me, maybe I was being overdramatic. Maybe I was a frigid bitch and other girls wouldn't have been upset with the situation. I just wanted to put it behind me. But clearly, 27 years later still occasionally looking him up on Facebook I haven’t put it behind me. And with what is going on in the news I can’t stop thinking about it.

When I went to college the biggest shock to me was how many strong, smart, fantastic women I befriended were raped or sexually assaulted. Women who came from all sorts of families, economic levels, cultures, religions, communities, prep schools and public schools. Women who were hurt by friends, family, and leaders in their community. Women who attended the same exact frat party I did wearing that same J. Crew rollneck sweater but their night took a different turn.  Women who told no one because they were scared. Scared of not being believed, scared of being blamed, scared of being shunned, scared of being kicked out of their school or their family, scared of far more than some exiting seniors calling them “slut” under their breath.

If someone at age 17 is found to be torturing cats in the neighborhood, would you just give them a slap on the wrists or would you put them in jail? What if that 17-year-old broke into a home, tied up the owners and stole their jewelry? Would you want a person who did either of these acts to be in a position of power? Why are women respected less than cats and jewelry?

That football player was popular, a good student, well-liked. He volunteered for charities, went to church, was the kind of kid you’d think you’d want your daughter to date. Ask a hundred people who knew him then, they’d say he was never the type to do such a thing. But he did.

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Comments

  1. Karen says

    September 22, 2019 at 12:37 pm

    something similar to this happened to me when I was in my 20s, I never told anyone and blocked it out so sucessfully, I didn’t talk about it until in therapy last year. I’m 68. So over 40 years ago. Yes, we don’t always tell anyone at the time, and some of us never. You are brave to tell about it now!

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  2. Karen Monson says

    September 22, 2019 at 12:36 pm

    something similar to this happened to me when I was in my 20s, I never told anyone and blocked it out so sucessfully, I didn’t talk about it until in therapy last year. I’m 68. So over 40 years ago. Yes, we don’t always tell anyone at the time, and some of us never. You are brave to tell about it now!

    Reply
  3. Bridget says

    October 13, 2018 at 5:43 pm

    <3

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  4. Lorena says

    October 12, 2018 at 1:16 pm

    Even thought time passes, those things continue to live with you.
    Just to think the huge effect this had on your life.
    Seeing the news is just baffling.

    Reply
  5. Dawn says

    October 4, 2018 at 8:59 pm

    You are showing such bravery to share this. Thank you.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 11, 2018 at 11:08 am

      Thank you Dawn <3

      Reply
  6. K says

    October 2, 2018 at 3:54 pm

    “Why are women respected less than cats and jewelry?” THIS. EXACTLY.

    Reply
  7. Jennifer says

    September 29, 2018 at 3:31 pm

    There is such power in our stories. I have similar stories and assaults. This week has been so, so hard.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 3:42 pm

      Much love and strength to you.

      Reply
  8. Lisa says

    September 26, 2018 at 10:48 pm

    Thank you for your honesty. I’m so sorry this happened to you, and so many others, myself included. Please don’t let anyone shame you into silence. I’m not just saying this to you but to all of us who have endured this very common experience. The victim blaming and shaming that occur when people speak out against their abuser is infuriating.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 3:43 pm

      I am sorry this happened to you too. Much love and strength to you.

      Reply
  9. ErinG says

    September 26, 2018 at 6:23 pm

    Alison- thank you for sharing this. I was sexually assaulted in high school and college- then sexually harassed at 2 jobs! I still don’t have the guts to detail any of this- and, 10+ years later I fear that I will be called into court for
    Harassment allegations against my boss- some 10+ years ago which is still “active in the court system! I believe the victims- this is all too painful to make it up!

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 3:44 pm

      I am so sorry all this happened to you. I believe you. <3

      Reply
  10. Cassie says

    September 25, 2018 at 2:22 pm

    Allie, I believe you. Thanks for writing this. It seems like every woman I know has one of these stories in her past, and it’s only by letting that skeleton army out of the closet and confronting it that we’re going to grow as a society, but that makes it no less hard to shine a light into your own dark history. It’s a brave thing, and I’m sorry you got the ridiculous, awful reaction you did.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:17 pm

      Thank you Cassie <3

      Reply
  11. Sara says

    September 25, 2018 at 2:06 pm

    I sent you an IG message of support before even actually reading this because whatever you wrote I was sure was a story like mine or my friends or countless other women and I wanted you to know that other women believe you and are grateful you are willing to tell your story. I wish I could say that our stories would make people change the way we teach our boys about how to treat these kinds of encounters but when there are women (who may be mothers to boys!) who attack other women for speaking out, how can we expect them to teach their sons? Incredibly disheartening. I had an encounter in college when a friend of mine came into my room while I was sleeping and trying to drunkenly rape me. He passed out on top of me before he could get past the fondling, kissing part. His words as he tried to get my pjs off were “I know other men come in your bedroom, why not me?” He felt entitled to my body simply because other men had access to it. Women are not a commodity for men. And many still need to learn that.

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    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:18 pm

      Oh Sara, I am so sorry that happened to you, and you’re right so many men still need to learn we are not a commodity. <3

      Reply
  12. Tiger1962 says

    September 25, 2018 at 12:51 pm

    Thank you for sharing. I believe you and the others. The ones complaining about what you wrote are obviously on the opposite side. I’m so sick of the “holier than thou” critics who are hypocrites. People just won’t “get it” until it happens to them. Rock on Allie – you’re terrific !!

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:24 pm

      Thank you <3

      Reply
  13. Bethany says

    September 25, 2018 at 12:20 pm

    Thank you for sharing. I believe you. I have a similar story as do many women I know.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:24 pm

      I’m sorry we share this in common. I believe you too. <3

      Reply
  14. Tracie says

    September 25, 2018 at 7:06 am

    I can’t even read some of the comments. This is your blog and I read it for your content- all of it. I’m sorry this happened but I am thankful you shared it. I have a similar story, a story I never told anyone until last week. If this debate leads to more people speaking up then there is value but no one gets to decide your story. I will read no matter what you write about because I value your voice, unless you write about Brussels sprouts. I hate those little things.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:26 pm

      LOL I’ll do a whole fashion advice series on how to wear Brussels sprouts 🙂 But in all seriousness, thank you. I am sorry we share this in common, but I do agree that sharing our stores has value and can hopefully create positive change at least for future generations.

      Reply
  15. Katie says

    September 25, 2018 at 6:29 am

    Allie,

    I’m really sorry this happened to you. I’m also really sorry that people feel the need to shame you for it on your own blog. Calling this a sexual exploit is so narrow minded – it obviously wasn’t what you wanted to happen that night. Continue being your awesome self!

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:26 pm

      Thank you Katie

      Reply
  16. Jenny says

    September 24, 2018 at 8:22 pm

    I, and many of the women in my life, have a story (or multiple stories) very much like the one you shared. The only way we will ever see a true culture change is by talking about it. Thank you for being brave and starting a conversation here.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:31 pm

      Thank you Jenny. And I am sorry such happened to you. Much love and strength to you.

      Reply
  17. Carly Horine says

    September 24, 2018 at 8:06 pm

    You are so inspirational- in your fashion, but more importantly your courage and strength! Thank you for sharing your story so that others maybe be inspired by you!

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:36 pm

      Thank you Carly

      Reply
  18. Chris says

    September 24, 2018 at 7:28 pm

    Allie,

    I wish I could say that your experience is extremely rare. Unfortunately, it is so commonplace. I haven’t met a single female over the age of 7, and sometimes younger, who has not experienced some variation of your experience. And how often the perpetrator is a family member or an “upstanding citizen” in the community..
    It’s disgusting and very sad.

    Thanks for speaking up. It took me years to be able to do so. In my case, the
    perpetrator lived under the same roof and the abuse started when I was 9.

    To be fair, sometimes the abused are young males.

    Decades later I am still dealing with guilt over something that never was
    my fault.

    Hugs and healing energy to us all.

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    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:36 pm

      Thank you Chris <3

      Reply
  19. Kelli says

    September 24, 2018 at 6:56 pm

    I’ve never read your blog, but I’ve followed you on the gram for a few years and have had such a great deal of respect for you and your experiences. Oftentimes people only understand violence against women when it happens in a dark alley, or behind bushes by some unknown attacker. Even then that experience is up for interpretation. People don’t realize what some people would call “small” experiences of being victimized can color a woman’s world, and oftentimes be a gateway to other experiences. I’m not going to tell you “I believe you” because the idea that I would even have to say that is insulting. I’ve never felt the need to validate your words concerning clothing so why would I then break from my value of you on one of the most important things.

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    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:43 pm

      Thank you Kelli <3 <3 <3

      Reply
  20. Laura says

    September 24, 2018 at 6:14 pm

    I believe you, and I’m so sorry that happened to you. You are not alone.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:44 pm

      Thank you Laura

      Reply
  21. Allyson says

    September 24, 2018 at 6:13 pm

    Women who don’t support other women and question their motives are without a doubt the worst types of people. It goes without saying that I’m sorry this happened to you. something similar happened to me….a family member …and no I have never told anyone about it. The people commenting negative things here are truly disgusting. I wish there was away to “unfollow” them in womanhood!

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    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:44 pm

      Thank you Allyson

      Reply
  22. Paula says

    September 24, 2018 at 5:18 pm

    I am so sorry this happened to you. I thank God that he did not force you further. What a loser! Bless you and your family.

    Reply
    • Alison Gary says

      October 2, 2018 at 5:44 pm

      Thank you Paula

      Reply
  23. Emily says

    September 24, 2018 at 5:18 pm

    I just saw your instastories and was appalled. APPALLED. I came straight here. I’m shocked and dismayed at how so many people refuse to be confronted with truths. It’s all around us – yet, they are comfortable turning a blind eye with fingers in their ears – with the gall to tell you how much they disapprove! I applaud your courage in putting this out there. I believe you because I’ve been there. No one WANTS to hear these stories, but that doesn’t make them any less real. They shouldn’t be swept under the rug to prevent someone from being uncomfortable. It’s not political – it’s reality and it’s wrong. I believe you and I #believesurvivors. <3

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  24. Anne says

    September 24, 2018 at 4:35 pm

    I don’t think I have ever commented on your blog before even though I am a regular reader. This has been such a hard time to be a survivor; for the past year I feel exposed and nervous and threatened all over again. And every time some person doubts a story or calls a woman a liar, I feel called a liar and doubted. Thank you for being an honest, up front blogger who bravely shared a story about the ways that women are vulnerable. I am so sorry you are getting a few negative comments. Those people make me sick to my stomach. I believe you. I believe women.

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  25. Nancyt says

    September 24, 2018 at 4:14 pm

    I want to voice my support, thanks, and pure appreciation for your sharing this – it is a powerful message. It is not an easy thing to put something so personal and traumatic out there – you are brave and I thank you.When I saw some of the comments on IG stories I was shocked and wanted to add my voice thanking you for sharing your life, thoughts and family with, your readers.

    Reply
  26. bubu says

    September 24, 2018 at 4:01 pm

    I will add to the chorus of support because it’s so important that women be empowered to speak up not just at the time but afterwards as well, and feel heard and supported rather than isolated and doubted.

    Reply
  27. Adele says

    September 24, 2018 at 1:23 pm

    Thank you for sharing, Alison. Please don’t listen to anyone who says this story doesn’t belong here. This is your place to share and I love that you are real and vulnerable and also wear cute clothes.

    Reply
  28. Joan says

    September 24, 2018 at 1:17 pm

    Thank you for telling your story Alison. I believe you. A big hug for you.

    Reply
  29. Ratula says

    September 24, 2018 at 12:54 pm

    Thank you for sharing your experience. I admire your honesty and courage.

    Reply
  30. Tara says

    September 24, 2018 at 11:59 am

    Alison, I am so sorry this happened. You are brave and strong, and this was a terrifying experience. I am a mom to two teenage boys and we have spent a lot of time talking about consent and consensual decisions to the point where every time I start to talk about it, they say “I know, Mom, I know.” But I’d rather be “annoying” in bringing it up and going over scenarios and talking about it honestly than to have them not be cognizant of the importance of making good decisions. Thank you for sharing your story.

    Reply
  31. Emily R says

    September 24, 2018 at 11:38 am

    Thank you for sharing your story, and for your bravery and honesty. I’m so sorry this happened to you. <3

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  32. KLK says

    September 24, 2018 at 9:12 am

    I believe you. Thank you for your bravery and for standing up for all of us who have had similar situations happen, but have been too ashamed to put them into words.

    Reply
  33. L H Carter says

    September 24, 2018 at 7:28 am

    I want to give you a hug and to shake your hand. The hug is for the pain in you from this horrible experience. The handshake for being brave,writing it down, and telling us about it. You were brave that night in the past and brave now.

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  34. Rosalind Kellett says

    September 24, 2018 at 6:02 am

    When I was about ten years old, a man said there was something I would want to see and led me across fields away from the houses. He put my hand on top of his penis and pressed my hand down, using it to massage his penis. I was lucky that he didn’t do more.

    He was the mayor and I never told a soul. I am now 76 years old. I have never forgotten.

    I live in a different country than yours and had never heard of the woman until reading what you had to say and then looking her up on the internet. It seems to me that as long as we women don’t tell, certain men will keep on doing these things “because they can” and because they get away with it. I don’t.know what it will take to change. Possibly the brave women who speak up will be a start…..but only a start. Did I read that only 4% of reported rapes are successfully prosecuted?

    Well done Alyson. The number of comments speak for themselves.

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  35. Sarah says

    September 24, 2018 at 2:29 am

    I am so sad this happened. Reading it felt awful and familiar and so very frightening.

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  36. Kris says

    September 24, 2018 at 1:29 am

    I’m so sorry this happened to you. You are courageous to share, and I’m exceptionally disappointed that readers would respond with anything other than compassion and support. Peace.

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  37. Claire says

    September 23, 2018 at 11:25 pm

    I am so sorry this happened to you. Good for you for making it clear at the time that you were willing to scream if you had to. Remember, what people project on FB is only part of what’s real, so maybe not all is so rosy for your attacker.

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  38. Helen says

    September 23, 2018 at 8:11 pm

    Alison: Thank you for this post. I believe you and am sorry it happened. Regarding whether it is appropriate for a fashion oriented blog: I believe it is especially appropriate. Often women are blamed for being sexually assaulted because of the way they look and dress. Let’s keep reminding ourselves that rape is never the victim’s fault. It is a violent crime of domination and destruction. It is not about sex or sexiness or sexual desire. We dress up for many, many reasons and I’m afraid it is often used against us. So, Alison, thank you for your courage and generosity in sharing your story and giving us an opportunity to remind ourselves about the pervasiveness of rape culture.

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  39. Betty says

    September 23, 2018 at 6:12 pm

    Thank you for your honesty and bravery. Like you, like most women, this is me too and I believe you and I suppport your decision to say something and support you for the things you can’t or won’t say.

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  40. Tamara says

    September 23, 2018 at 6:10 pm

    I am sorry for you pain, I was also sexuayl assulted. More then once.
    Regarding what happens in the news. You and I know nothing. Very arogant of you to assume you know who is the victim in this story.

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    • Alison Gary says

      September 23, 2018 at 6:19 pm

      Where in this piece did I mention that specific news and what side I am on? But since you mentioned it… I do believe Christine Blasey Ford. I don’t want to get into a debate here, I support you and all who are victims of sexual assault. I’ve read many pieces on the subject from both sides, this is one of the more powerful pieces I’ve read about Ford https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/christine-blasey-ford-wanted-to-flee-the-us-to-avoid-brett-kavanaugh-now-she-may-testify-against-him/2018/09/22/db942340-bdb1-11e8-8792-78719177250f_story.html?utm_term=.784326556113 thank you for sharing do not think I am attacking you, I am just sharing my thoughts.

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  41. Deb says

    September 23, 2018 at 5:53 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story. Every time, in the last week, that I’ve heard someone say, “why didn’t she come forward then” I wanted to scream! That is the response of a person (mostly men) who have no idea what Kristine was going through. And is still going through.

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  42. Martha says

    September 23, 2018 at 5:14 pm

    Thank you for having the courage to share this in such a public way. This is so important and way too common of an occurrence in our society

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  43. Anna says

    September 23, 2018 at 5:03 pm

    Contributing my sympathy about your experience and my admiration for telling it now on your blog, so very honestly and well. I cannot believe (well, yes I can) the two early commenters who didn’t believe you or think you are just trying to generate traffic. They are only to be pitied for not knowing truth when they see it. Thank you, Alison, for this post.

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  44. Lynn says

    September 23, 2018 at 4:36 pm

    I am so angry that this happened to you, to me and to so many others. My perpetrator was my boss, one of the most powerful men in the state and one who had been a mentor to me. We went to dinner, he got drunk and forced himself on me in the car while the driver ignored us both. When I told a colleague, she told me it was my fault for not realizing that could happen. I thought I had healed, but the current reaction to the SCOTUS nomination has opened old wounds. I can’t believes o many men are still so uncaring.

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    • Helen says

      September 23, 2018 at 7:55 pm

      Lynn, thank you for sharing your story. I just want to re-state – what happened was not your fault. This man betrayed your trust. I’m sure you have heard this before, but it cannot be said enough for any woman who has been through this.

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  45. Dee says

    September 23, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    I’m sorry that this happened to you and I wish you peace. What’s happening today only reinforces the audacity and entitlement of that young man.

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  46. Donna says

    September 23, 2018 at 3:34 pm

    I BELIEVE YOU! Things just like this have happened to so many of us at some point in our lives, and it’s time for all of us to tell our stories and make everyone understand this behavior is not acceptable and must stop.

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  47. Jane in Canada says

    September 23, 2018 at 3:19 pm

    That was a sexual assault. There was violence, threat, and social violence. You are working through recovered memory. Trauma does not resolve itself after being addressed once.
    No you have new knowledge of what it was. Educate your daughter about sexual assault and how to work through trauma.

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  48. Karen says

    September 23, 2018 at 3:13 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story. Unlike some commenters, I feel it’s your blog so you can write about whatever you want. I believe your story and I am sorry that you had that happen to you.

    When I was 12 or 13 I was in front of the family car parked in our driveway when the boy from around the corner startled me (he was a year older than me). He said we should go in the back seat of the car and pretend were married. I yelled NO and told him to go away. So then he jumped me. I wrestled with him and managed to get him off me. Ran to my front door as he ran after me. I struggled with the screen door then the front door which I managed to get closed and locked. God knows where my mother was in this struggle but as far as anyone hearing what went on it didn’t look like anyone had. I too never told a soul. But this is something that stays with you forever. It’s been over 40 years now and I will remember this until I die. Like your attacker, mine is on facebook. He’s divorced now but has 2 boys. I hope they don’t turn out like their father but they seem to be following his footsteps with sports (football of course). He’s a “christian” now and a dedicated coach who receives praises from the football parents and community. He’s as creepy looking now (actually worse) than he was back then.

    How disheartening to know that so many of us have similar stories, and some unfortunately, worse. And that we feel the need to be silent about these attacks. And should we say something there’s a good chance we won’t be believed. It is maddening and gets me beyond angry.

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  49. Pal says

    September 23, 2018 at 2:54 pm

    I follow your blog. I don’t know you. I believe you.
    Please remember: you have a good life.
    I don’t want to comment on any of your story or “him” because you are dealing with enough.
    but you might want to read this post from another blog (about deniers) I have read for much longer than yours

    https://newworkplace.wordpress.com/2018/09/23/a-lot-of-deniers-are-simply-playing-a-sick-sociopathic-game/

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  50. You Know Me says

    September 23, 2018 at 2:35 pm

    I went to college with you. I highly doubt this happened.

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    • That Girl says

      September 23, 2018 at 5:07 pm

      May you be shown more compassion than you have given with this post.

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    • That Girl says

      September 23, 2018 at 5:10 pm

      Hi “You Know Me,” may you be shown more compassion than you have given with this post.

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    • Marla says

      September 24, 2018 at 2:55 pm

      And you would know that how? People keep things to themselves that they consider shameful for years. I would ask that if you don’t be Allie why are you reading her blog?

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  51. Jeanette says

    September 23, 2018 at 2:32 pm

    How convenient you share this now. Are you trying to go viral? Is your traffic down? I thought this was a fashion blog. Unfollowing.

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    • Carol-Anne Powell says

      September 23, 2018 at 6:56 pm

      Women can be about more than one thing. Most of us are. This blog has always been about more than one thing (fashion).

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    • Tutti says

      September 29, 2018 at 12:24 pm

      Don’t let the door hit you on the way out, Jeanette.

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  52. Trystan says

    September 23, 2018 at 1:59 pm

    Thank you for sharing this. I wish your story wasn’t so common. I wish I & all my female friends didn’t have similar ones. I wish more men in our lives — & men in power — understood & believed our stories & didn’t think that boys will be boys & that he was just 17 & it’s no big deal. It IS a big deal, it’s wrong, & no 17-year-old or anyone of any age should get away with it.

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  53. Jane says

    September 23, 2018 at 1:43 pm

    So well written. Your comment that a similar crime might have derailed his nomination is so true. Crimes against women are considered less than serious. I don’t think this will change the nomination unless more women come forward. (Harming one woman isn’t enough.) . I also despise the fact that a large number of women signed a letter in support of him, I guess because he didn’t hurt them.

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  54. Heidi says

    September 23, 2018 at 1:33 pm

    Thank you for sharing this. Having this in the news constantly right now is really triggery!!! Blessings.

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  55. Kaarin says

    September 23, 2018 at 1:18 pm

    I’m so sorry this happened. Thank you for sharing.

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  56. RoseAG says

    September 23, 2018 at 12:58 pm

    What you describe isn’t exactly like what I experienced as a high school/college student, but it’s close. This kind of aggression was, and probably still is, commonplace. Don’t think that I am excusing it, I’m just saying that a lot of people experienced it including myself.

    I wasn’t in favor of this current nominee before this came out, and it goes without saying that this incident hasn’t changed my opinion of him.

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  57. Michelle says

    September 23, 2018 at 12:25 pm

    I’m not surprised how prevalent this behavior is. I’ve been through several iterations of this. I don’t know how to tell my story and have people understand that I would be horrified if the men/boys involved were THIS CLOSE to being on the highest court. Thank you for sharing.

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  58. Cynthia says

    September 23, 2018 at 12:15 pm

    Thank you for this. It must have been so hard for you to write, but imagine if everyone who was assaulted felt able to tell someone. What a fundamental shift that would cause.

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    • Kerry says

      September 23, 2018 at 12:52 pm

      Thank you for sharing your story. #Believe

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  59. Alison says

    September 23, 2018 at 12:13 pm

    Thank you for sharing this Alison. The sesnse of entitlement on his part is sickening, and so common. I have someone like that in my past and I can imagine how horror-stricken I’d be if he was nominated like Kavanaugh.

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  60. Lisa says

    September 23, 2018 at 11:47 am

    I am so sorry that this happened to you… more than sorry—-angry. This is unacceptable and far more prevalent than we realize. As the mother of two daughters and a son I hope I’ve raised them to be the difference.

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  61. Christina says

    September 23, 2018 at 11:10 am

    Thank you! There’s so much more I want to say…but thank you for being brave, being a voice for so many, and encouraging others in so many ways.

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  62. Margot says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:54 am

    Thank you for your courage. I am sorry this happened to you.

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  63. Anon says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:39 am

    Thank you for being courageous and speaking up, telling your story and being vulnerable. It’s SO hard to do that. Know that your courage will inspire others to deal with the injustices of their experiences.
    I’m with you.
    I reported mine to the company I work for (it was work related), and while they made good noises, the person appeared to be reprimanded (punished doesn’t seem to the right word) due to my complaint being substantiated, but …yes…that person, the leader/manager I reported is still…”leading”/working there like nothing every happened. It’s scary to even type this…like I’m going to have people recognize me and hunt me down for daring to go against the boys club at work, especially when I am not perfect myself per the respectability politics game that people like to play against the victims.
    Random but related to the blog: I will tell you its changed my fashion and sense of what I can do – lots of dark colors and coverage from neck to knees at least – no heels, no v necks or anything too ‘sexy’. Blend in and do not stand out. The protections are strangling but yet I can’t let go of them.
    What you said is what I’ve been feeling these past one or two weeks “And with what is going on in the news I can’t stop thinking about it.” Preach it Allie. Thank you for telling your story, so I can take that vibe, the courageous, vulnerable force of inspiration you just sent out to the world and be a little braver myself.
    I believe you. I believe Christine Ford. I believe the men and women that have stepped foward during and beyond #metoo. Terrible things have been done to people and there is an ongoing need for people to speak out about their stories. I hope that together the voices of the victims and the call for justice and change can bring down the predators from their high protective towers of privilege, denial, authority, and dysfunction (religious or not).

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  64. Sandra says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:35 am

    Thank you for sharing this. I have been reading every article that comes my way about such incidents since the outcry of Dr. Ford. The high school times we lived through weren’t so stellar. I have no one in my conservative community to really process this with and had hoped you would bring it up. I am sorry you have a story that fits the narrative and is more than fitting to the discussion. Though I don’t have a rape or attempted rape story, just remembering the treatment of girls of the time repulses me. I am 51. The continuation of the treatment of women and how wide spread it REALLY STILL IS confuses me. Thanks for your brave story.

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  65. Debby Heermann says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:30 am

    Very powerfully written, and I agree, should go viral. I’m one who has not experienced something like this, and my heart is heavy when I hear and read these accounts. You are brave and strong.

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  66. Patricia says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:29 am

    I agree. I hope this goes viral. I’ll share it on facebook.

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  67. Robin says

    September 23, 2018 at 10:22 am

    I think it’s very courageous of you to share this. When I was 14, I was held back by 2 boys while 3 others threw my friend to the floor and tore off her blouse. She screamed and fought back hard. They let her go and we escaped. Even now I can’t give a rational explanation of why we did’t tell our parents or another adult. The closest I get was the shame that we were somehow to blame for what happened. Let’s teach our daughters that there is no shame.

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  68. Kim says

    September 23, 2018 at 9:45 am

    I too had this same experience as a freshman in college. He was a boy from my hometown and from a very affluent family. He did rape me. I never told. My husband is the only person to this day that knows. THis was 38 years ago for me. I haven’t forgotten. I don’t remember every detail, but I remember enough to know it happened to me.

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  69. D says

    September 23, 2018 at 9:08 am

    I’m just a handful of years older than you, but same high school story with different details. I imagine it happened to a lot of us. When I started crying, he stopped. The effect on everyone is unique and each of one of us deserves to be believed.

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  70. Lee says

    September 23, 2018 at 9:01 am

    I’m so sorry that happened to you. I feel furious and heartbroken, all at the same time. Isn’t it so typical that he got away with this, maybe even did it to other girls, and went on to a successful life? He’s probably considered a pillar of the community and of his church (& I feel that so many churches unfairly put all responsibility and blame about sexual matters on girls).

    Boys get a pass; girls get stuck dealing with the confusion and emotional fallout for the rest of their lives. As a mom of a white male, I am trying to take opportunities when they come our way to point out to him that he cannot act this way. Of course we’d all like to think our own kids would never do x, y, or z. But if our culture let’s them think that they can, we need to change it.

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  71. Pat says

    September 23, 2018 at 8:58 am

    Tell it. This post deserves to go viral. I am sorry this happened to you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  72. Laura says

    September 23, 2018 at 8:57 am

    How very brave of you to talk about this. I too, am a survivor of sexual assault from high school. I’m almost 69 and I have never forgotten the incidents and never forgotten the names. And, like you, I told no one. Back in the 60’s, it just wasn’t discussed and I would have been told it was my fault. I am so proud of women who are speaking out now. And I have taught my daughter, now 33 with her own daughter, to be strong and if anything happens to speak up. Maybe someday, when my 3 hear old granddaughter is in highschool, women will be a valuable as jewelry or cats.

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  73. Lisa says

    September 23, 2018 at 8:57 am

    Thank you for sharing this. It took a lot of courage. I am so sorry this happened to you. Part of me hopes that sorry excuse of a human realized his actions were wrong and damaging and has gotten help for it but I doubt it. Huge hugs to you and to all of us who have been in that situation. May we find healing and peace.

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  74. Ruth says

    September 23, 2018 at 8:32 am

    What a sad and horrid story. I know there are many worse, but this is your story. And the fact that similar and worse happened to so many of your friends. I’m not sure which is worse – the pushing you or the boasting afterwards. He sounds like a hideous, hypocritical ‘pillar of the community’. Yuk. I wonder if he even remembers. I hope that putting it out here makes you feel less damaged by it. Because I think the worst of all is leaving you feeling somehow at fault.

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If @thechicks are in town you can bet @debbiefaye78 and I will be there! So when we heard they were coming to @merriweatherpp we were so excited. And their concert did not disappoint. As always, a phenomenal show! If The Chicks come to your neck of the woods I highly recommend you go!

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My sister’s caftan is from @anthropologie (bought this summer so maybe you can find on resale sites).

I’m wearing a @bananarepublic dress also from this summer with the @universalstandard denim chore jacket and a hat I got from a @madewell collab a year or so ago. I glammed it up with some gold chains and gold drop earrings, but kept it comfy for a night of standing and dancing with @birkenstock sandals.

This was my first big outing since my eye surgery, and with a pocketful of eye drops I felt good (and grateful we splurged for good seats!).

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If I close my eyes you can’t tell one is still bloodshot 😜

Still recovering from my eye surgery but feeling more myself. Getting dolled up helps me feel me. Bright colors and bold jewelry have been signature Alison since I was a kid! 

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Happy gotcha day, Oscar! Four years ago he came into our life and we are so happy to have in our family!

Oscar was a rescue and came with some… quirks. Over the years we have come to understand him and he has come to trust us. He’s a diva, a snuggler, he could play catch for hours, and he’s my husband’s shadow. 

We’ve never had a small breed dog before and it’s a whole different experience. But we adore Oscar and couldn’t imagine our life without him! Thank you for coming into our life Oskie McGoskie! 🐾❤️

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I can see clearly now…

Actually I can’t, but things after my retina surgery are much improved! My next appointment is in a month and I’m cleared to get back into the world (with some restrictions to protect my eye).

With a sclera buckle, it changes your eye shape and now I am nearsighted again (I had lasik a few years ago). Once the eye is stabilized I can get glasses or contacts but until then I’m 20/20 in one eye and right now 20/60 in the other. But the eye is healing beautifully and I feel positive!

And I could see clearly enough to fall for this poppy-colored cotton jumpsuit from @pistoladenim. It comes in a few colors but this one is my favorite. I went with XL (im@a 14, sometimes 16) and likely could have sized down but I enjoy the relaxed fit and the drawstring waistband to create shape. And hello zipper closure making it super easy to get on and off!

My husband took this photo right after my eye appointment, I think it reflects my positive attitude and feeling of hope! 🧡

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I’ll be a bit quiet on here and other channels because I had eye (retinal) surgery this past weekend. I was having what I thought were ocular migraines but come to find out I was experiencing lattice degeneration, which is thinning/holes in the retina. I had surgery Saturday for my right eye and later on they’ll work on the left eye, which isn’t as bad and can be remedied by laser, in office.

I share not because I’m Mrs. Frizzle meets Iris Apfel as I recuperate at home, but because this whole thing has been a lesson on trusting my gut. And I want to remind you to do the same.

As we get older our bodies can feel like strangers. Things are constantly changing and it’s easy to just assume your annual physical will catch anything wrong. But if you slow down and listen to your body you’ll know when things are just a sign of aging and life and what seems unusual. That nagging issue may be something more serious.

And if you’re seeing flashing lights, floaters, spiderwebs or other odd eye things get checked out ASAP. It may be nothing but take it from me, it may actually be something. ❤️

Okay, going back to my big sunglasses caftan recuperation life!

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While in Savannah, I made sure to get lunch reservations for me and E at @theoldepinkhouse she loves the color pink, historic homes, and ghost stories so it was a perfect choice! 

Built in 1789 on Reynolds Square, there are stories of guests seeing ghosts, cutlery and wine bottles moving along with an elegant and truly delicious dining. 

While we didn’t see any apparitions, we did have a lovely lunch with impeccable service and after toured all floors of the home. I highly recommend a visit if you’re visiting Savannah!

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Scenes from a week in Savannah… 

The three of us (and our dog Oscar!) had a warm and humid but wonderful time exploring Savannah, Georgia earlier this month. Our daughter visited this gorgeous city last summer with her @girlscouts troop but wanted to return to experience more. We let her choose our adventures and play your guide and it was awesome. We cannot wait to visit again, though next time it won’t be August 🥵

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Stripes are always right…

Y’all know I love stripes and when @universalstandard came out with their Breton-stripe dresses and tops I HAD to try them! As expected, the quality is stellar, the fit boosts my confidence, and I appreciate the range of colors (5 different stripes to choose from) and sizes (00-50). For reference, I’m wearing XS but preferred S for the top and I usually wear a 14 or XL in other brands.

The tote is @able and it’s a soft yet durable leather that just looks better with time. This color (cognac) is one that transitions nicely from summer to fall. 

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I’ve been raving about my Printfresh pajamas for years, my family also wanted to try them. Thank you Printfresh for gifting these for our annual three generation girls’ getaway to Rehoboth Beach, DE. We had a great time and being all matchy matchy in our pajamas was a fun addition! 🐅🍃🥰

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