Hi guys, just checking in! No baby yet, we are on Day 3 of BabyWatch since she had the official EDD of January 2nd.
Went to the midwife, body is not really showing signs of being ready; tomorrow I am going for an NST and biophysical workup to ensure the baby is doing well and I am providing a good home for her for now. But I am not too worried. An EDD is an estimated due date, and I can feel my body adjusting and changing every day so I don't think it will be much longer.
Yesterday I ventured out and got a pedicure (OPI, will have to report back with the color but it's a hot pink very similar to the accent color for the nursery) and a brow wax. Amazing how little things like that can totally change your outlook. I feel much more positive! Also on New Year's Eve I took a very long bath, gave my hair a deep conditioning treatment (some sample from Ojion) and a face mask (good old Milk of Magnesia – never tried it before) and that helped a lot too.
My hair seems really happy from being air dried – yesterday I took a bath after washing my hair like normal. Think the steam and having it piled on my head did wonders for I had these silky shiny curls all day long. My hair is getting really long and I think in the New Year I will let it get long and a bit wild/kinky. My hair always is more manageable and curlier when longer and think by summer it could look pretty cool and be around my shoulder blades. As for product, I am still fiercely loyal to Pureology hydrate shampoo and conditioner (the ones in the purple bottles) and Matrix Curl.Life Contouring Milk (very small amount scrunched and let to air dry). I just bought refills yesterday since there was a salon next to the nail salon that carried both brands.
I was getting some weird breakouts but switched from my Body Shop Moisture White face cleansing powder to Avalon Organics Vitamin C Refreshing Cleansing Gel and my skin seems far happier. Usually in the winter I have sensitive and very dry skin but with the pregnancy I have been oilier and I think a bit more… durable. I still only wash at night and just use rosewater witch hazel to cleanse in the morning. For moisture, at night I am using Body Shop's Vitamin E Night Cream, daytime is Keihl's SPF 15 moisturizer, and eyes it is the Avon ANEW Clinical Eye Lift, which is a gel for the upper eye and a cream for the lower eye. Relatively happy with all of them, though both the day and night moisturizers are just from using what is on hand and trying to clean out the linen closet and medicine cabinet before I purchase anything new. So if any of you have moisturizers that you think are the Holy Grail, I would love to hear about them!
As for the Avon ANEW Clinical Eye Lift… I do like it. I love the gel/cream combo because nothing is left to be greasy, or cause puffiness. A little goes a long way, my eyes never feel irritated, and makeup goes on easily without fading or slipping later in the day. I don't think it has transformed my eye area, but I do notice that when I don't use it for a day or two my eye area is a bit more sensitive, red, and dry (which makes my bagginess and beginning of lines more pronounced). I have a friend who started selling Avon this summer; if she hadn't I wouldn't have tried any of their products because I just have a negative opinion of the brand from childhood. However everything OI have tried thus far has been at least as good as a drug store brand, if not better. The prices are fantastic, and they usually have some deal with free shipping so Avon has become relatively appealing to me in the past few months. 🙂
As for the New Year, I didn't really decide to make a ton of resolutions because I never keep them and then just end up with guilt. However through this pregnancy I have learned a lot about myself and other people and hope to adjust myself a bit in the New Year based on these observations.
I will be a more giving friend. I think I am a pretty good friend, but I am a cautious/shy one. With the pregnancy, my father in law's death, the house remodel, I have seen many people we know just step up to the situation. The day we found out about my husband's dad a couple we are close with showed up at 4pm with two frozen lasagnas, two loaves of garlic bread, a few bags of chips and bottles of soda and some DVDs. They didn't call, they didn't ask what we needed, they just came. They brought what they would appreciate if in the same situation and it was so sweet of a gesture. It was also nice to not have to think about what to make for dinner. the wife just preheated my oven and got to work, the husband immediately started the DVD player trying to get my husband into conversation and laughter.
We had similar experiences from others the past few months that make us so grateful and feel so blessed to be surrounded by such amazing souls. In 2009, I would like to be even more like one of those souls – to stop waiting to find out where I am needed and find the need. To not hesitate, thinking I may do the wrong thing. For when one is in need, it's not as much about what is given as that something is given. And I desire to be a more openly giving person.
I will be more active. A little over a year ago, I was going kigong twice a week and yoga 2-4 times a week. I was trying to live a more simple life, often walking to the market with my rolling cart instead of driving the half mile. My husband and I would go on hikes or rides on our tandem bike on Sundays. I got down to where I could occasionally wear a size 10, I felt great in my body, had good energy and spirit.
Somehow, I lost a lot of that. Yoga dropped to 1-2 times a week and a couple half-hearted sun salutations each morning. The couch somehow became more comfortable and the tandem bike is covered with dust. It didn't help that I had serious RLP from walking starting my second trimester and then was forced on bed rest.
Actually, I see bed rest as a blessing because it showed how desperately my figure needs movement and exercise. Diet is fine, but I have a body that responds more so to exercise – when I move, I feel better, I lose weight faster, I crave different foods and feel more myself and less punished. I am antsy, day dreaming about hikes in the woods, swimming laps at the indoor pool in town, riding the tandem on back roads in the country, even my work commute and the walk in the city. As I have always felt, I don't care about what size I wear or what the scale says. It's about having a body that works well – that can get me around town, can help me enjoy outdoor vacations, that will let me keep up with this daughter that will arrive any day, and keep me strong enough to see her grow up and become an adult.
I know exercise will have to come slow after the baby arrives – but even 10 minute daily walks around the block will be seen as a decadent treat after bed rest. I am okay with taking it slow – no major goals to fit into certain things by certain dates. Just about regaining the strength of me two years ago and continuing down such a path.
I will be more mindful of my health. In the same vein as the previous goal, but more about what I consume. I think I eat far more healthy than most people I know but I know I can do better. I love to cook – I need to do it more often. Eating more seasonally, getting further from the cheeses and pastas and trying new grains and vegetables. When I consume alcohol, to have it be worthy of my time – quality wine that is savored not gulped, etc. To be more mindful of what I put in my mouth and make each sip or bite deserving and worth it.
Well I should take my afternoon nap so I can keep this BP nice and low for tomorrow's NST! 🙂