Thursday

PictureI found out yesterday that my aunt passed away. She was the last of my dad's siblings, there were five of them. My dad passed away ten years ago. It's hitting me pretty hard, I think the combination of her passing and it reminding me of my dad, and then all of this happening while pregnant and knowing that my daughter will never meet these utterly amazing and loving people… well it's a lot.

I have taken the next two days off. I would like to go down to Florida for the funeral but am not sure if I can get a flight, and one that isn't a kazillion dollars.

So this is what I look like right now, and may look like the next two days if I can't get a flight. Very tired, very sad, still sick, and in desperate need of hibernation. It was already a tough week…

When they say you get emotional and hormonal when pregnant, they aren't kidding! ūüôā The past 24 hours have been a bit of a roller coaster, and my plan is to rest, meditate, heal up and come to terms with everything. I look forward to “seeing” all of you on Monday and hope everyone has a good weekend. Take the time to contact a distant friend and relative and tell him or her how much you love and appreciate him.

17 Comments

  1. September 26, 2008 / 3:49 pm

    Big hugs to you!!! There is something strange that happens when you are pregnant and have children- you start to realize your own and other’s mortality, and think more intensely about how life carries on through generations and traditions etc. I hope you take all the time you need for yourself to work through the emotions!

  2. September 26, 2008 / 12:53 pm

    Sorry to hear about your aunt, Allie, and that you are missing your Dad. If it makes you feel at all better, I think you look lovely with no makeup and feeling tired, sad and sick. Hope you managed to get a flight… have a restful weekend x

  3. September 26, 2008 / 3:07 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.

  4. Margot
    September 26, 2008 / 2:29 am

    Allie,

    I am so sorry to hear of the death of your Aunt.
    It is never a easy thing and with the heightened emotions and feelings of being pregnant I am sure you are feeling every thing. Please take care of yourself.
    If you can attend the funeral that is great and if you cannot without adding to the stress then I am sure your Aunt will know you are thinking of her and it will be o.k.

    I hope you recover from being sick quickly.

    Thank you for the reminder to cherish our loved ones.

    Blessed Be,

    Margot

  5. September 26, 2008 / 12:50 am

    I am so sorry about your loss honey. I was pregnant in 2007 and had to deal with a loss also, it is tough when you are already so emotional. Take care of yourself and I hope you are able to get a flight. HUGS!!

  6. September 25, 2008 / 9:11 pm

    My condolences on your loss. A death in the family is never easy, but emotional stuff is 100x worse when you’re pregnant. I wanted to say thanks for taking the time to comment on my slightly stalkerish post about your blog, and I promise to be less creepy in the future.

  7. September 25, 2008 / 8:12 pm

    I love your blog, but don’t usually comment (La Femme Couture is my Sister-in-law). My sympathies go out to your and your family.
    I lived in FL for awhile, SW airlines usually has pretty cheap flights into Tampa and Orland (and you can always try renting a car from there). Also, United airlines sometimes as some good specials (try their main website) Good luck!

  8. astarte's student
    September 25, 2008 / 7:17 pm

    My thoughts are with you and your family, Allie. You and K, take care of yourselves. It’s perfectly natural to be emotional right now, so let yourself get through the healing however you need to! *big hugs*

  9. September 25, 2008 / 4:37 pm

    Alli – Take care of yourself. My father passed away last Thursday morning, so i know all too well how hard it is to lose a loved one. Sending you big hugs and my prayers.

    CherylP.

  10. Anonymous
    September 25, 2008 / 4:02 pm

    Take care and try not to stress yourself and the baby girl out too much.

  11. September 25, 2008 / 2:40 pm

    I am so sorry to hear your sad news. Take care of yourself, I hope that you get a flight and that things work out!
    I heard some not so good news, last night, about a friend of mine (not seen her for a while) who had a baby 3 weeks ago. After this I am going to do my best to make contact this week and let her know that I am here!
    Take care, “see you” next week!

  12. Amethyst
    September 25, 2008 / 2:22 pm

    My deepest condolences!

  13. September 25, 2008 / 1:58 pm

    Oh Allie, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

  14. Christa
    September 25, 2008 / 1:24 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt and I hope you’re able to make attend the funeral if you decide that’s important to do.

    @abrown-eyedgrrl – Lots of airlines have cut those fares, and the ones who DO offer them aren’t always a good deal (I’ve found cheaper flights online on my own sometimes) but the only airlines I know who still offer them are American, United, Northwest and Continental. The others may, but a few years ago a lot quit giving them. The easiest way to find if they do is google “bereavement fare (an airline name)” and see if something pops up.

    Because your husband will probably go in tow, you might consider driving. One round-trip of gas could very well be about the same price as two airline tickets, I have no idea. Also, I’m online and see that USAir has tickets from DCA to Orlando (Don’t know where your aunt was and Orlando was the first city that came to mind!) starting at $198! It’s a crack of dawn Saturday flight, but that’s probably just as well – you’ll be there in time for the service. You may just be able to find a decent deal for airline tickets if you’re willing to spend half an hour hunting.

  15. a brown-eyed grrl
    September 25, 2008 / 12:58 pm

    Sorry to hear that. Try to check into bereavement fares. I’m not sure how it works, but I know most airline offer last-minute flights for funerals, sometimes at a discount.

  16. September 25, 2008 / 12:38 pm

    Take care of yourself. I am constantly reading your blog but never commenting, so I thought I would today to let you know that you are appreciated! Remember to rest and take it easy the next few days – it is important for both of you!

  17. September 25, 2008 / 12:35 pm

    Hugs to you Allie. Emotional stuff is always more intense during pregnancy. Still, it’s good to remember that the influence of your friends and family has shaped you into the person you are today and your baby will certainly know their influence through you. Rest up.

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