My sister sent me her Snapfish album of pictures from Emerson's birthday party.I looked at the pictures of me when I didn't know/think about my picture being taken. I was happy my sister fixed my bangs before present-opening, and also happy I wore a solid color. Of course, like most women I was noticing my double chin, how my eye makeup may have been a bit too dark for that time of day, all the negative aspects of me. But then I thought… you know what? I look pretty darn good.
So I decided to go back and look at pictures from Emerson's first birthday. First of all, omigoodness look how much my baby has grown! But moreso… look how much I have changed!
New moms, do know the body will keep changing. Look at that stomach – that's no where near a “nine months in, nine months out” sort of body. That stomach at Emerson's first birthday looks as though I just gave birth a month earlier. And I can remember thinking I looked relatively good that day. And I can think right now how I have such a crazy saggy/flabby belly. But it's changing, constantly changing. Things move, shift, tighten, adjust. Don't be hard on yourself – you just did an amazing thing – you created a living human being!
I'm not going to say I look awesome now, but I can see the progress. And the progress isn't just on the scale. As I get accustomed to this new body, I am learning all over how to dress myself to flatter my shape, I am learning how to feed this body to feel satisfied but not stuffed, I am learning how to move and stretch to make it feel its best. It's a process, a learning experience. Nine months in, nine months out may work for some women, but for me and most women I know – it's a myth.
It's hard to get adjusted to this new life – a whole other person living in your home, being your top responsibility. Lack of sleep, lack of brain cells, learning and adjusting every day with a body that is constantly healing, changing, adapting. It takes time to get the hang of things, but I feel I have finally gotten a grasp on this new life, which gives me the time and confidence to get a grasp on my weight and my personal health. And seeing these pictures just give me all the more confidence and inspiration!